Though it may be 1998,
I haven't aged a day since 1598,
And since that time,
Never have I seen my native land,
Though you would call it France,
I would not,
Even though you have forgotten,
Even though you cannot know.
I was of but twenty years,
When I crossed the lines that hold and bind your mortal realm,
But now let me tell you of the days before that time,
Of those I loved and I must come to lose,
Even though until this day,
I refuse to accept that truth,
That all things die and leave this Earth,
Indeed I still believe they remain here with me,
And I search to see them near,
For eternity if needs be.
To the past we must go,
To a vale under Darkened skies,
A place that we called our own,
A place like no other.
We lived and we thrived,
We grew and then we died.
And we were two combined to make one,
Big and small, we existed in harmony,
And built the mightiest civiliztion of them all.
And of them all there were two,
Most special of all to me.
Brother and sister, there has lived no other,
Of their kind.
He was as if of my blood,
Friend eternal, we were like one in the battle-strife,
She was eternal love,
A love I had to hide.
This is when I died,
The person who was me fled inward,
A friendship I couldn't risk,
To this day this is my one regret,
That to say nothing made me nothing.
But to the story now,
Little came to big and told of a place,
A place over the sea,
The Place from where they came.
They said it was time to go home,
And us, their friends,
Were invited to follow them to a golden land,
And so we prepared to put the sail to the wind,
A mighty ocean lay before us,
But I had no fear in my heart as we left,
The only home I had ever known,
For the two that made it stood by my side,
But as we left the shores I felt something change,
I felt the stars realign,
And I then knew that I was forever changed,
Eternal life was their gift,
All the world was mine, to with as I pleased.
Soon we set foot upon a hallowed land,
Where no man had trod before,
A land of lakes and mountain streams,
Sparkling silver in the morning sun,
And there did we make our new home,
Man and beast in harmony,
But all too soon the years did pass,
And those I loved would come to die,
To cross into eternal night,
And through that time,
Never once did I speak my mind,
Never did I tell you of my undying adoration,
And so I never gave you a chance,
I never knew if you felt the same,
And therein lies my pain.
1998, the year of rebirth,
400 years of undying lonlieness,
All that I now have to show,
The people are split,
In isolation they live,
A century of hate stands between,
We took their land and gave them pain,
But it was I who stayed my hand,
When my wisdom could have saved all,
But instead I dwell alone in my misery,
Pain dragging me through the day,
While outside people live or die,
But I spare not a thought,
From myself,
Or from her.
I could take it no more,
So I returned to the place,
Where once we did land,
And where we made a new home,
All that remains, those who I wronged.
To the cemetery I went,
From grave to grave,
Till a memorial I found,
He was written and preserved,
For eternity,
But where was she?
Despair struck me down,
A truth I could not believe,
So a vow I made,
That I would find her again in this world,
And then would I pass into the next.
A journey I undertook,
To disrupt the passage of time,
To bring Darkest Night to me,
Eternal sleep must be mine.
And I rage,
Against the endless passing of time,
Passing me by,
A day neverending,
A nighted sky but a distant memory,
Of youthful mortality,
And playful days,
In her joyous garden,
Where hope eternal was born,
And to there I return,
To be reborn into life,
New life so that I can die,
Thats what I desire,
To join her in everlasting night.
What do you think? Let me know at
darien@globalnet.co.uk
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