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| When I
was sixteen I got kicked out of a children ’s home in the Channel Islands
and I ended up sleeping on people ’s floors and the streets . I came over to Sheffield where I lived in a hostel.I them moved on to Portsmouth.I went home to Guernsey and then I came back to London.I ’ve been on the streets here since April. When I first came to London there was honour amongst thieves as you would say.I could ask someone to look after my bag for ten minutes while I sorted something out but you couldn ’t do that now.Basically,it boils down to drugs and things are harder in life these days. Since the Labour Government have come in to power things have got a lot worse for the homeless. When they came in to power they said that there would get the homeless off the streets by 2002.The way they have tried to do it is by stopping the handouts, but that just forces you to get things by other means.  Being homeless is an easy life,it ’s a cop-out really.There
is a feeling inside of me that if I was up I would be scared of going down,so
why not stay down then you know where you are?As a nine year old I was a solvent abuser,which carried on till my early twenties.When I grew out of that I knew that I had to replace that habit with something else.That ’s when I turned to alcohol.I ’m one of these people that can try anything once.I ’ve tried heroin but fortunately for me I didn ’t like it.I tried crack and I loved it.I spent up to one hundred and fifty pounds a day just to feed my habit.The buzz on crack can ’t really be explained but its akin to an orgasm. I went to the doctor the other day and he asked me if I wanted to go into detox. There was no point lying so I told him I didn ’t want to. I just like getting out of my face. I choose to live on the street because you don ’t have society’s pressures. I’m a beggar, that ’s how I make my money. People come down on me all the time. All I get is do this, get a job. I can ’t understand it because it ’s not like I ’m robbing their house or causing them any hassle.I ’ve got a lot of things to say to people when they have a go at me. There are a lot of people on the street who have been into the forces. When they were wearing their uniforms they were heros .Now they are on the street they are f******s***bags. They end up on the streets because the forces chew them up and spit them out. The biggest alcoholic I know on the street was in the paras. When he came out of the forces he was a paramedic on a motorbike.He went home early one night and caught his wife in bed with somebody.Now he ’s on the street.I ’d say that 98%of people are on the streets because of women. It’s like if your married with kids and you end up splitting up the woman gets everything,and your left out on your ear. I’ve been in prison a lot of times.If you added all my time up I ’ve probably done about six years.You go into prison with nothing and you come out with nothing.There is no help in prison,it ’s a dead-end place which I don ’t want to go back to. I ’m not looking forward to the future.There is only one thing that’s certain for me and that ’s death. To be quite honest I was born through no fault of my own and I don ’t like life. I have walked different paths and I ’ve never felt fulfilled in any of them. After death I don ’t believe in anything because I don ’t believe in things I can ’t see with my eyes.I do believe in a force around us but I don ’t believe that it ’s Christ.The force can ’t have anything to do with humans because I believe that we were created from some kind of disease. I have a dog called Hooch. Basically,he was in a squat getting mistreated. My friend took him from the squat but realised that he couldn ’t look after him, so he gave him to me. He’s a loyal and dependable dog. He ’s given me more in the five months since I’ve had him than any humans ever done for me. |
