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Bernard Rawstron is in our
drug rehabilitation programme.
The way Ive been brought
up has not been the right way. I have six brothers who were all committing
crime and I just stepped into that. Its escalated and escalated. I was
doing burglaries when I was fourteen. Its a bit silly but you dont
think about it at the time when youre doing the things that you do.
When I was fourteen I started getting into major drugs such as
cannabis, amphetamines, tamazipan and vallium. It was really whatever I could
get my hands on. You just carry on until youre on heroin. I was against
drugs but you dont think about the consequences of it all until
youre down.
I got into heroin when a mate came to my flat and
asked if he could use the toilet. When he came back into the front room he
looked different. I asked him what it was like and he said that its just
like cannabis but stronger. I had a sample and it went on from there. A few
days later and I started to feel a bit weird. I asked him what the matter was
and he said that I just needed a bit more. I had some more. I started to do
stupid things to get the money to make me feel normal.
Heroin is very
addictive. Its the same as cocaine. Youre not helping yourself by
taking it. In fact youre making it worse and worse. Ive started to
realise what Im doing to myself but Ive still dabbled and dabbled.
When I came out of prison I had a dabble. Then I thought thats
it, no more. But I did some crime, got some money and I went back on the heroin
again.
Ive come to T.H.O.M.A.S. now to try and sort my life out
for the first time. Im proud of myself for just coming down here. I think
this project is fantastic. Some people feel ashamed of themselves when they
look at what theyve done and what they havent, but theyre not
looking at it from the proper angle.
In the future I hope to have a
good life. Looking out and thinking, wheres my next drug coming
from, is no life. Life is more important than drugs. We are not on this
earth to torture ourselves and make our lives a misery. Were here to make
the best of it. You wont find happiness on drugs. Youve got to come
off it and stay off it, then youll get respect from people. It takes
time. Youve got to do it for yourself and no-one
else.
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