Subject: [Dagger] [Porc] The madness pervails.
Date: Wed, 12 Aug 1998 16:51:43 -0400
From: "Jim Davis" <jrdavis@penn.com>
To: <dagrfall@ods.com>

Through all the voices, I heard Zarth.  His mind was running rampant, but
piercing all other thoughts was a simple question.  "Why?"

I have no good answer that you would accept.  Without an innate power lust
(which I lack, by the way) one may have difficulty understanding.  All these
thoughts ran through the safe part of my mind, barred away from the
madness.

My thoughts ran in cycles as night fell and the companions put up tents.  I
remember being nearby, but am not sure if I was in a tent or no.  The voices
continued to assail most of my mind, but my thoughts ran on.

Finally, the sane part of my mind came up with the answer.  Inferiority
complex.  On SOVERE (that one's to you, Mea), I was near a god.  People
parted a path and no one dared challenge me, not even the dragons, nor the
gods.  Kali ensured that.  Here, I was just another titled adventurer.  When
I spouted off my full name, a peasant once just shrugged his shoulders and
moved on, wholly unimpressed.  I figured that if I conquered the whole of
Tamriel and added it to the Tamislane empire, then I would gain the
recognition I so needed.

That thought led to the fact that I was considered noble by my former
fellows, but was in no way noble in the Tamriellic sense.  I have to be
among my people, not cloistered in some palace away from the dirt and
hardships of everyday life.  Following suit, the reason for my ignoble
behavior also surfaced.  I was still in my trials of passage.  I am Lord
Tamislane by name alone.  My father runs the title itself and has all the
responsibility.  He just wants to move onto another title, and he wants me
to adventure for a time till I learn some wisdom.

Feeling some sick sense of justice overwhelm me, I transmitted these
thoughts, as well as a moment or two of the voices assailing my mind, to the
companions, who were sitting around a fire.  Ha!  I may be down, but I am
not done yet!

~Lord Jemalas Tamislane, Master Dweomerkeeper, Ruler of Kalisis, High Lord
of Thornwood
jrdavis@penn.com
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