Subject: [Dagger] [PORC]Before you decide. Date: Fri, 7 Aug 1998 22:41:42 -0400 From: "Jim Davis" To: "Mea," I said, "before you answer on whether you want to stay or not, allow me to cross minds with you once more. The latent mode of my psionics has picked up something from Zarth. He doubts my sanity. If you would allow one last mind-cross, you will see that my thoughts are orderly, yet at the moment a bit dramatic. I promise I will not put forth any more psychic attacks." Mea nodded, glad that I for once asked permission before invading someone's mind. Her mind came across mine as I remembered my latest adventures on Tamriel. I felt her mind smile at the time I was the dragon and busted through the wall, then fell asleep when she used a pacify animal on me. After that, her emotions became guarded, and I was unable to read them without using force to open her mind, which I promised I would not do. I felt my mind grow tense as I remembered facing the black wyrm in the dwarven clan hall, and the gratitude for the impromptu healing she gave me after I was unimpaled from the dragon's claw. I remembered the awe-struck look on her and Zarth's faces when they used the Midnight Medallions. I also remember her splintering one target after another on Kalisis on the archery range we went to while Betrayal was practicing with his new pole-axe. Sadly, she then came to the darker side of my mind. She learned that my temper was barely controlled. Though I seem calm, the chaotic forces of magic that surge through my body are the real cause. She saw how when I was 17, I killed a teenage boy in a fit of rage. She saw the experience through my eyes, as I was poked with a boar spear, which drew blood. She saw the red haze come over my vision, then she saw me grab the spear and start laying about me. She saw how I had sliced half of the boy's face off before he died. Then she felt the warm gratitude when Kali came, healed the boy and then sent me on my way after vanishing. She saw my experience with the were boars on the High Ice in Thornwood, when my rage drove me near insanity. Then she felt that I was as sane as ever, being cut off from the magic which drives my berserk fits. Seeing this, she pulled away and ended the link. She had decided. She said.......................... ~Lord Jemalas Tamislane, Master Dweomerkeeper, Ruler of Kalisis, High Lord of Thornwood jrdavis@penn.com ICQ- 16848203