Long Term Glandular Fever - Running on Empty

Running on Empty

   Imagine you were six years old and someone told you that you were going to Disney World next week. The mental excitement and enthusiasm which comes from that realisation is instantly transfered to your physical form. "Yippie!" you shout as you jump off the sofa. "Yes!", "Yes!" and off you go to pack your case - just to make sure that you are going to be absolutely ready to go in time!

   Now imagine what would happen if you told me the same news. Now lets face it, I don't manage to get out very much, and I would be delighted to be visiting Disney World - besides that I've still got the enthusiasm of a child for this kind of thing anyway - in short mentally I would be over the moon.

   But there's a problem. When I go to jump off the sofa, when I go to pack, and when I am actually there enjoying myself - there is no energy to power me. The energy to move my wretched physical form comes entirely from my health reserves. Which in turn reduces my resistence and leaves my physical supplies ever weakened.

   Now lets get this straight, I'm not depressed mentally - you invite me out to dinner or a walk in the park and I want to do it - with all my heart. In fact not only do I want to work, run, play, talk, travel etc, but the fact that I will do these things to the detriment of my physical health actually proves that I am mentally stronger than the average: I have learnt that for life to be worth living, sometimes I have to put my health second to gaining experience. Further, I have learnt this against 15 years of on-going conditioning the other way!

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