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I'm 27 years old and I'm from Liverpool.I split up with my girl about five years ago and since then I have been an alcoholic. First I was over-paranoid because I took other drugs like amphetamine and that. I was in a home when I was at school and I have just recently found out that the head care worker was a paedophile and has just got twelve years.I looked up to him and that really shocked me. You cant trust no-one. I have a daughter who's six.I live on my own and all I do is drink, everyday, all day. I drink the nasty cider, four or five litres a day. I don't drink to enjoy it,I need drink to function.I have done some bad things to my family through the drink. I have just let my flat go into a pig-sty. I never buy food,I just go around the family to eat their food.I am a semi-skilled welder but because of the shakes I just couldn't be bothered going looking for work.I suffer from epilepsy now and I've got a funny feeling that it is to do with the drink and I do have fits. My mum is still alive but my dad is dead.I went to his funeral but I never met him.I have only ever seen him on a video. My mum is a nurse and she works in theatre at Fazackley Hospital in Liverpool.She told me he was dying and I wanted to go and see him but she wouldn't let me and that upset me. I got over that.My granddad died in 91' and I was close to him. I'm still close to my nan. She helps me out and that. I went into care from 1984 to 1989 for disruptive behavior, sagging school,fighting and just being an all-round git. I didn't want to go but they said I had behavioral problems. I wouldn't pay attention in class,give lip to . The final straw was when I got arrested by the wrong,I was never in trouble. I got my homework in on time and passed my exams.I was just dead well. I JUST COULDN'T STOP DRINKING the teachers,I would just walk out of the room. But sometimes things would happen and I would get blamed but it wasn't me. That left me bitter. When I first left school I had a great job and everything. Then my mum's then husband got me a job working down south. I was eighteen and on £500 a week. I had totally wrecked my chances with the firm I was already in and that didn't last. I just pottered around doing jobs. I have been unemployed now since 97'. I have an addictive personality I would say myself. When the club scene first come out I was going to Raves,taking Ecstasy and Amphetamines. It was the in thing, every one was doing it. It started off first just having a couple of smokes of Pot. Then I was doing Acid and picking Mushees. Then I started just drinking Castlemanes. When I finished with my girlfriend and we split up I started getting on to the no-heavier stuff like Skol Super's.I was having 3 or 4 of them a day and it just escalated to where I was having four or five litres a day or whatever I could lay my hands on.It revolves all around drink,just to make me function.I get bad anxiety attacks. I have just come into the Reconcile Project. It was my uncle who got in touch with them and if it weren't for him I think I would still be drinking right now. It is only my second day but I think I am going to make it work. Well not think,I know. I know it's going to be hard this next week but hopefully it will take my mind off it. In the future I would like to get back to work and do what I do best,I am a welder. |
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