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LEARNING TO COPE WITHOUT DRUGS |
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Ive learnt how to cope with life without drugs. My way of thinking has changed the things that I do; the things that I say; I have changed so much. My attitude towards people has changed. Ive discovered a different person in me. Im a kind and caring person. Im not the same as I was when I was using drugs. I started using drugs when I was fourteen years old. It began with cannabis. I had a problem with alcohol, not with drinking it all the time, more that I couldnt handle myself when I was on it. I was violent with drink. When I was sixteen years old I met my girlfriend through some friends. After a year of being together we split up. Two years down the line we ended up back together. It was good and I loved her. I know now that it was not the relationship for me. When we split up at the beginning of last year is when I started touching heroin. I felt lonely and I turned to the drug. I was so much against it as well. Im glad that Ive only been on it a year and Ive come to the conclusion that I dont need it. Ive been in prison five times for violence. Ive been in Lancaster Farms four times, two on remand and two convicted. It was through drink as well. I didnt know how to cope with my anger. Recently, I have learnt how to cope with anger and walk away from situations. I can even go out and have a social drink without it leading to getting drunk. I dont go out to get drunk anymore. Heroin is a totally different story. When I started using it I knew what it was going to do to me. At the time I didnt care. I am the most important thing in my life at this time. I now care what happens to me. I dont want the life that some of my family have had. I want to be different to what Ive grown up around. My dads name Haggan has got a bad reputation but I dont want to be part of that. I want to be part of my dad but not the reputation. I dont need it. Being here with T.H.O.M.A.S. has equipped me with ways to deal with that. I want a better way of life now. I want kids and I want a decent job. I want to be normal. It has shown me here how to deal with my emotions and everything that has happened to me. As I look ahead to the future I want to get my own place. I would also like to go to college, do some voluntary work and set myself up for a brighter future. What I think is special about this project is the people who run it. The one thing Im not used to is people caring. There is a lot of love in this place. People come down here to help and they dont have to, a lot of it is voluntary. I have had a good upbringing until I was sixteen but Ive never had people care for me since then, until now. |
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