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EDGES MAGAZINE Issue
40 |
December
2004 |
I missed
school to look after mum
Jo Westley, 17, cares
for her ill mum and brother but still finds time to study and socialise
My mum first went into hospital
when I was ten, just after my youngest brother Nick was born. She was diagnosed
with something called sarcoidosis, which attacks the immune system. Mum was in
and out of hospital all the time. Sometimes she would be there for a month,
other times it would be a couple of weeks. Visiting her was scary as she was
always really pale and had loads of tubes connected to her. My stepdad
works long hours, so when Mum first started going into hospital, my nan and
auntie Debbie would help us out. But as the eldest, I started to help tidy and
do the washing- up and laundry. When my mum was at home but feeling ill,
Id often take days off school to help look after her. We used to tell
school that I was ill, but no one questioned it. I wasnt resentful about
the situation I thought I was helping out. I didnt tell most of my
friends what was going on because I didnt want them to think I was
different. But some people I told would make hurtful comments.
We
noticed there was something wrong with my youngest brother Nick when he was
about two. He wasnt as advanced as other children, and he didnt
talk much. My cousin Timothy suffers from autism, which means he has problems
interacting and communicating with people, and Mum recognised some of the same
symptoms in Nick. He wasnt diagnosed with autism for another two
years but my mum prepared us for it by talking about my cousin. I wasnt
scared or upset Ive always been close to Timothy but I was
worried that Nick having autism would make mums condition worse.
When I was younger, my family would help a lot with mum and
Nick, but I began to take more control of things when I was 15. I learnt how to
deal with Nicks tantrums by ignoring him which was hard when he
was trying to headbutt things to get attention. Ive needed to physically
pin him down on the floor to stop him on occasions. Now and again Id get
frustrated about not being able to go out with my friends or go shopping, but I
got used to things. Everyone says to me: "I dont know how you deal
with it." But Im used to it. I do get jealous of friends who have less to
worry about, but I dont dwell on it its just part of my
life. Its a matter of organising myself. At school people will mess about
during their lessons and then do their work at home. But I cant do that
I try to get everything done at school. Last year I got a part-time job
in a shop after my GCSEs. Its great experience and it gives me a bit of
money to spend on myself. It gives me independence as well its
good to get out and I really enjoy meeting new people.
I think my
home life has affected my personality because I have more things going on than
your average 17-year-old. Its strange when I go round to my friends
houses and their mums are running around after them. Ill get up to do
something and theyre like, "No, no dont worry, Ill do it!" I
am concerned about what the future holds for Nick but I dont dwell on it
too much. I just concentrate on the present because I havent got the time
to think about anything else. |
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