Edges Magazine Issue 37 - Catherine Hunter & Thank You

EDGES MAGAZINE Issue 37

April 2004

Poems by Catherine Hunter
Catherine Hunter
I have sat and cried for the way I have felt
I have questioned God for the cards I’ve been dealt
I have wept for the person I was last year
I have prayed for the mist in my eyes to be cleared
I have wanted to die and not given a damn
I have done things I shouldn’t and tried every scam

The thirst for heroin is no longer within
I’ve made my choice and I won’t let it win
It’s always there in the back of my brain
Desperately trying to drive me insane
Patiently waiting for any old flaw
Hoping it’s grasp will soon be restored
Tempting me back with a voice in my head
Hoping its appetite will soon be fed

I sit and I think of the morals I’ve lost
The way I desired it whatever the cost
The people I’ve cheated, the friends I have hurt
The strangers I’ve robbed and treated like dirt
I did it for heroin; I did it for ‘need’
It was nothing but selfish and all done for greed
I sit and I weep for the person I’ve been
And Thank God that today I am finally clean.

Thank You
What words can I write to show you that I care?
How can I thank you with a pen and paper when you’ve always been there?
You’ve seen me through everything, be it good times or bad.
You’ve been there for me no matter what, even when you got mad.
You kept me free from the Devil’s Dust when I nearly took the bait.
You’ve seen me at my best and worst and in every dreaded state.
You brought me up when I’ve been down and helped me through the worst.
You’ve stuck by me no matter what, even when I’ve cried and cursed.
You picked me up when I fell and always kept me safe.
When times have been really tough, in you I kept faith.
You’ve given me your knowledge and strength and taught me more and more.
When I’ve been wrong and you’ve been right you let me know the score.
You protected me from evil and kept me free from harm.
When I’ve been going out of my mind you taught me to be calm.
You lifted up my spirits time and time again.
You kept me away from all that’s bad and always eased my pain.
If it wasn’t for you my dearest friend then surely I’d be dead.
But you gave me the willpower and strength to choose life instead.
There are no words to begin to describe what you mean to me.
But sure enough I’ll prove myself just so you can see.
You’ve given your all, you’ve kept me clean and now I must thank you.
And let you know that wherever you are I always will love you.