EDGES MAGAZINE Issue 16
An Abomination ?
LIVES IN LONDON AND HE RECENTLY SPOKE TO EDGES MAGAZINE
If I knew anything about myself as a
child, I always knew this one thing. One overriding fact about me.
From the age of seven, one fact was foremost in my mind and carried me
through school and almost defined my career and the rest of my life.
This one thing gives me comfort and strength but also makes me angry
and frustrated. Of course I am talking about my Faith as a Roman
These days it seems fashionable to be gay. In
recent weeks, many prominent political figures have made known their
gayness in a climate where being gay is supposed to be trendy. We are
told that gay people exist in all walks of life and hold down all
kinds of jobs. We are led to believe that they are not all agnostics
and that some are even Catholics. Well yes, this is true. I am one of
those. I am proud to be a Gay Catholic.
Now at thirty-two
years old, my faith still plays an important part in my life. I didn't
become a priest: I either wasn't being called or God had decided to
alter his plans for me. I hold a job of which my Mother would be proud
and live a life within which I am content. I do not forget that I am
one of God's children and try hard to live a good life. One may think
that it is incongruous to say that a gay man can live a "good"
life. Well, I do not live a lifestyle that breaks any of the ten
commandments, additionally, I try not to judge others as only God
knows the rules by which we shall all be judged on the Last Day.
Many people quote sections of the Bible to me out of context, in
order to support an argument. I can find sections of the Bible with
which to endorse slavery, sexism or racism. Out of context quotations
have also been used by those eager to prove, in their opinion, why
being gay is against God. I am certain that God made me. I find it
hard therefore, to believe that He made a mistake in his creation of
me and other gay and lesbian people. So to those who decry my life, I
remind them that I am not harming anyone and, for the most part, they
do not know enough about me to dismiss my entire existence. I have
faced times of great sadness and God has given me strength. I have
encountered doubts and been helped through by his grace. Nevertheless,
it is not for me to say that being gay is not against God, but if God
is capable of guiding the hand of one such "abomination" as
mine, maybe at this time of peace and goodwill to all, we too could
show a little less hostility to one of the least of God's children.
Ultimately, it is my faith that guides me. I take
consolation in the words of Jesus in John's Gospel: "There are
many rooms in my Father's house...." I believe that God has
already prepared a place for me.